this is stupid to say but i really want S back! Just to have someone to talk to. I think he is the only one that can understand me… like seriously… Those years i felt so comfortable. When i’m down, i can always talk to him… I can just message him and he will try to cheer me up. I miss that alot. I know, i have B now but that’s different. I don’t feel like he is someone i can share things with. Not yet, maybe because of our state right now which is why i’m not that close to him. I dont even know why he stole my heart, but he just did. Maybe i should give time to this. So yes, S is like a shield for me. He never fails to make me smile. I think some part of me has not move on about him. Whenever i lay on the bed, those promises that we made together, those things that we share, those days when we were in “love” always appears on my mind. I just smiled and teared… Maybe it’s true that first love is so hard to forget. I won’t change anything about that. I’m so glad i make beautiful memories with him. Now that im sort of in a relationship, i think things that I do in my previous one seems to haunt me back. really!! It’s so freaky i think that B is behaving like the way i did. Now I know how patient S is. I dont knowwwwwwwww. uhhhhhh. I just feel like leaving B. but when i think about it, i can’t. :(
