shit is what describe most of the things now. I have to complete soooo many things. My PW, Lijiang CIP planning, arab exam, religious exam, train for nike human race and sooo many more things to be done. tomorrow, i will roughly know if im getting promoted or not. If i am, im seriously going to faint but if i’m not then, well… not surprising considering that I think I didn’t work hard ENOUGH. My parents said i was more hardworking than before. But in my eyes it felt that i’m getting slacker. Well, i’m always the late bloomer. have to change that. Not a good thing to do now.
On the other hand, I feel a sense of disappointment in myself. I don’t know what exactly it is but it’s something that you feel that’s not right about you. You know, that feeling. It’s soo hard to describe.
I have to invest on a new camera since i’m under publications for the lijiang trip. Can’t wait to play with snow and have a taste of how beautiful the nature is. Have to have a good eye in order to at least have my photograph displayed along the school’s corridor. Ehem! that will be very much a sense of achievement.
Lately, this person is being a douchebag. Yeah.
My love life has been… well.. progressing very well i must say. Although there’s no real aim whatsoever but i’m just loving the way it is right now. I make a cinnamon and date cake which is his family’s recipe. It tasted nice hehehehe he was happy. I am too. I can bake you know!! WOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. That aside, i just hope that we won’t give up on each other no matter what. I love you so much. Uhm, yeah you would probably laugh about that if you know the situation between me and him buttttt omg i think that i’ve never loved someone this much before. YES MORE THAN MY PREVIOUS. B is just soo special. so sweet. :)
Oh yes, i’ve been lamenting about the past where FANS exist in most public places. It is so sickening that everywhere i go now is air conditioned. The thing is, i get cold damn easily so it’s practically like i will feel cold throughout the day. I dont know how im going to survive winter in lijiang. Maybe i should get a sub zero gloves so my hands won’t freeze. Does that even exist?.
Geez. What a life I’m living. I love you god.
