Life’s been mundane and there’s nothing exciting to talk about. whatelse,it’s my life and i’m begining to hate it all over again. I Don’t have a feeling of excitement anymore about anything because things are pretty much like a routine. I hate my life so much now but i just don’t know why. I feel lost ?! There’s just emptiness inside me and I dont feel like i’m living my life right now with so much satisfaction. I don’t know, 2009 is just soo odd and different to me,i think. It’s full of aimless thoughts and unclear directions, finding my self and just a hazy picture running through my head. I felt that it’s not a fruitful year for me. Nothing acomplished, nothing I felt was good enough. It sucks to have a feeling like that.You know when you just look in the mirror and cry and not knowing the very sole reason why you’re doing that. it SUCKSSSSSSSSSSSS you knowwwwwwwwwww. I need someone but I know, no one will really understand how i feel because I can’t understand it nor explain my feelings. =’(
anyway, Am flying off Lijiang nextweek, which i’m quite enthusiastic about not because of the company, but the fact that im getting a new camera and going to take pictures for the publications team. That’s it, all in all, the reason why i wanna go there is to see snow.hmmm i know, how pathetic….
So, i have this “infatuation” kind of moment with this guy in my lijiang team :) part of the reason why im looking forward to attend the meeting ( you should know i hardly turn up for meetings, eg: CCA ) so yeah although half the time he is hardly there.. The lazy kinda guy but quite charming :D hmmm droools. hee. It’s just mere entertainment he is just too cuteeeeee. can’t wait to be with him for a whole week!
Oh, on the sidenote, i’m taking mandarin lessons. Dont know why suddenly I have this affinity for languages… am taking french and japanese after mandarin so.. am quite excited. Maybe it’s just a kind of hobby ? looooooooool.
grrrrrrr. Now something reminds me that I have econs correction to do. so, MAASALAMAH !
